Thursday, March 26, 2009

Its a crushing sound in the back of my mind

I think it finally hit me yesterday that I am twenty four.  As I stood naked in front of the bathroom mirror, as I do everyday to prepare my face and hair for the out-side world, I felt the pressure of adult responsibilities crushing behind my skull.  Seems that there are so many things that I have to do and really have no inclination as to how.  Graduation is nipping me on the heels, the search for a job has me realizing that I have never really worked, and the signing of another six month lease on my apartment has given me a very tangible time-table as to how long I have to get my shit together for the move to Montreal.  I suppose its only one thing at a time...but they all seem like very high hurdles to pass through. Often, I find myself distracting my mind from the larger tasks by completing minor chores, hoping that their completion would give me some sensation of accomplishment.  

This tide is rising to my windowsill.  Remember Mary, you just have to keep swimming and don't let the water over your head.  I know I'm not alone in this race against the tide.

1 comment:

a cat of impossible colour said...

It is scary. Best of luck jumping the hurdles!