This tide is rising to my windowsill. Remember Mary, you just have to keep swimming and don't let the water over your head. I know I'm not alone in this race against the tide.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Its a crushing sound in the back of my mind
I think it finally hit me yesterday that I am twenty four. As I stood naked in front of the bathroom mirror, as I do everyday to prepare my face and hair for the out-side world, I felt the pressure of adult responsibilities crushing behind my skull. Seems that there are so many things that I have to do and really have no inclination as to how. Graduation is nipping me on the heels, the search for a job has me realizing that I have never really worked, and the signing of another six month lease on my apartment has given me a very tangible time-table as to how long I have to get my shit together for the move to Montreal. I suppose its only one thing at a time...but they all seem like very high hurdles to pass through. Often, I find myself distracting my mind from the larger tasks by completing minor chores, hoping that their completion would give me some sensation of accomplishment.